SciFiSteve
That’s generally what writers do.
SciFiSteve
I need to finish this story by tonight.
Kevin99
Dont bullshit me dude
SciFiSteve
It’s kind of a true story.
SciFiSteve
I am going to kill myself.
Kevin99
Haha very funny Steve
SciFiSteve
I am not joking.
Kevin99
Screw u dont say shit like that
SciFiSteve
You’d probably be the only person who’d miss me and I’m still embarrassed to be near you.
SciFiSteve
Utterly and completely.
Kevin99
What because u tried to put the moves on me and I didn’t go for it?
Kevin99
It’s the hairy legs…can’t have it man
SciFiSteve
Everything is not a joke. You made me feel bad about myself.
Kevin99
U think i didnt feel bad dude? Last thing i ever wanted was to hurt ur feelings.
Kevin99
But u leaned in to kiss me and it was awkward
SciFiSteve
My entire life is awkward.
Kevin99
Yeah u and millions of other teenagers u shit
Kevin99
u kill yourself and ill never forgive u
SciFiSteve
You won’t have to forgive me, I will be dead.
Kevin99
U cant just casually say ur gonna kill yourself
SciFiSteve
I can if it’s true.
Kevin99
Screw u! Weve known each other since kindergarten.
Kevin99
Weve been talking about what colleges we might want to go to TOGETHER
Kevin99
Dont u dare do this to me
SciFiSteve
To YOU? Everything is not about you, Kev.
Kevin99
This is some bullshit right here. Come to my house right now!
SciFiSteve
You’re not going to talk me out of it. You’re a handsome, athletic, straight white male. Life is easy for you.
Kevin99
For a best friend u know surprisingly little about me
Kevin99
Get the hell over to my house
Kevin99
I need to see you
SciFiSteve
Fine, fine. Give me 10 minutes.
SciFiSteve
I’m here. Where are you?
Kevin99
Upstairs bathroom
SciFiSteve
Ok, coming up.
SciFiSteve
Hey! Let me out of here! You can’t lock me in your goddamned bathroom!
Kevin99
Sure i can i just did its my bathroom
Kevin99
And this is America and freedom of speech and stuff!
SciFiSteve
Not funny. Let me out of here or at least talk to me through the door. Where are you?
Kevin99
No if im outside the door u will cry and make me feel bad and ill let you out
Kevin99
And dont u dare try anything funny in that bathroom
SciFiSteve
You can’t keep me prisoner. That’s against the law.
Kevin99
Fine call the cops and ill just tell em u want to kill yourself and im trying to save u
Kevin99
Maybe theyll give u a nice 48 hour evaluation period in a padded room
SciFiSteve
Fine, get this over with, whatever THIS is.
SciFiSteve
Save me. Be the big bad hetero hero.
Kevin99
Steve u are a special dude. U are a great writer and...
Kevin99
I want to spend the rest of my life reading your shit and hanging out with u
Kevin99
Ur gay OK fine so r a lot of people who have great lives
SciFiSteve
It’s not just about being gay. It’s not that simple.
SciFiSteve
It’s about a deep pain in my heart like my demons are trying to rip it out.
SciFiSteve
It’s about a loneliness that can’t be filled by sitting on the couch watching movies with you.
SciFiSteve
It’s about seeing everyone else appearing fine and happy and me wondering why I’m an alien.
SciFiSteve
It’s about happiness and sadness becoming indistinguishable.
Kevin99
Look on the floor at the grout between tiles by the toilet
SciFiSteve
Ok, some kind of small dark stain.
Kevin99
That’s MY blood. I tried to kill myself a year ago after my parents divorced
Kevin99
Well “tried to kill myself” might b too strong
Kevin99
I sat on the toilet and halfheartedly cut my wrist with a razor
SciFiSteve
Kev, why didn’t you tell me?
Kevin99
Because i was embarrassed and because i didnt finish the job
Kevin99
I started cutting one wrist and it hurt like a mofo
Kevin99
I was bleeding on the bathroom floor and realized what an asshole i was
Kevin99
And also i remembered my parents were assholes and probably better off apart
Kevin99
and if i went thru with it id b an asshole too
Kevin99
The reason u never see me on thursday nights is cuz i see my therapist
SciFiSteve
You always seemed like the happiest guy I know.
Kevin99
I keep my pain inside u wear it on your sleeve
Kevin99
Most happy people r probably faking it
SciFiSteve
I wouldn’t know. I don’t bother to fake it.
SciFiSteve
Let me out of the bathroom. This is ridiculous. We should be talking about this stuff face to face.
SciFiSteve
Let me out or I’m going to text your mom and tell her we’re doing gay stuff together in here.
Kevin99
Open the medicine cabinet
SciFiSteve
Wow, your mom likes her meds.
Kevin99
She sure does…look inside the bottle with my name…the Percocet.
SciFiSteve
Why is there a rolled up picture of us inside the bottle?
Kevin99
I was hooked on pain meds for months after my knee injury
Kevin99
I accidentally took a few too many one night and was rushed to the hospital
SciFiSteve
Jeez, how many things have you hidden from me?
Kevin99
Probably not as much as u hid from me
Kevin99
When I got back from the hospital i dumped out all my pills and put a picture of us in the bottle
Kevin99
To remind myself why life is worth it
Kevin99
I am not gay and I am not in love with u but damn do i love u dude
SciFiSteve
Can I come out of this bathroom yet?
Kevin99
One more thing…look in closet behind all the toilet paper inside the coffee can
SciFiSteve
Holy shit! There’s several thousand dollars in here!
SciFiSteve
Stop bullshitting.
Kevin99
My dads a friggin rich lawyer…my college is set and i dont even need to work a part time job
SciFiSteve
And I don’t have a pot to piss in.
Kevin99
All the money i made working at the diner the last two years
SciFiSteve
Kevin, I am literally crying.
Kevin99
When ur all rich and famous and writerly u r totally paying me back
SciFiSteve
Can’t believe it took me wanting to kill myself to find out how great a friend you are.
SciFiSteve
You’ll be happy to know I don’t feel like killing myself right now.
Kevin99
Then u can come out of the bathroom now its open. Been open for like 10 minutes.
Kevin99
Im on the swings out back
Kevin99
What? Come down…we dont need to talk just sit here in silence and b cool
SciFiSteve
Kevin, I appreciate everything you’ve been doing for me.
SciFiSteve
You made me feel better tonight.
Kevin99
Seriously dont mention it
SciFiSteve
But I can’t take your money. Don’t think I’ll need it.
Kevin99
Ur not going to college?
SciFiSteve
Maybe, maybe not. If I’m still alive, sure.
Kevin99
Wait, what? We settled this. Ur not going to do it
SciFiSteve
You can’t lock me in a bathroom every time I consider killing myself.
SciFiSteve
There just aren’t enough bathrooms.
