I’m at the wildest house party of the year.
My boyfriend, Trey, went home an hour ago.
Me and my friend Kat have been dancing all night.
Then all of a sudden…
Out of nowhere…
I look into her eyes…
And we start to make out.
For a second, I completely forget where I am.
I’m lost in the moment…
And then…
I pull away.
Madison
Madison
Uhh, I’m so sorry.
Kat laughs at me and shrugs her shoulders.
Kat
Kat
For what?
I slink away from the dance floor…
Madison
Madison
I have to go.
Kat
Kat
Oh, c’mon Mad!
Kat
Kat
Don’t worry about it.
Madison
Madison
No, I’m sorry…I have to go.
Madison
Madison
I’ll, uh, see you tomorrow.
My heart starts to pound in my chest.
The whole party seems to blur.
I run out of the house onto the quiet street.
Oh my god.
What have I done?
This is horrible.
I cheated on my boyfriend…
With a girl.
My phone vibrates in my pocket.
The message is from Trey…
I can’t even bear to look at it.
I pocket my phone…
And start to walk home.
I feel so guilty.
This is truly a betrayal of trust.
I can’t run from this mistake.
I have to tell him what I’ve done…
That’s the right thing to do.
The next day at school…
I find Trey at his locker.
Madison
Madison
Hey, Trey.
He looks at me with those warm eyes…
And gives me a big smile.
Trey
Trey
Good morning, beautiful.
My stomach is in knots.
Madison
Madison
Trey, I have to tell you something.
He grabs my hand.
I open my mouth to speak…
But nothing comes out.
Trey
Trey
What is it, Mads?
Madison
Madison
I, uh…
Madison
Madison
I love your shirt.
Trey
Trey
Hey, thanks!
Trey
Trey
Me too! You bought it for me!
Madison
Madison
Oh, hah! Yeah!
Trey
Trey
Are you sure you’re okay?
Down the hallway I see Kat…
Madison
Madison
I…yes, I’m great.
Madison
Madison
I’ll be right back.
Madison
Madison
Don’t go anywhere!
I scoot past Trey down the hall.
Madison
Madison
Kat!
She turns and smiles at me.
Kat
Kat
Hi there!
Kat
Kat
Last night you were running away from me.
Madison
Madison
I know, I’m sorry.
I guide her around the corner…
Where Trey can’t see.
Madison
Madison
Look, Kat…
Madison
Madison
I’m not really sure what to say.
She grabs me by the shoulders.
Kat
Kat
Listen, Madison.
Kat
Kat
We had a moment.
Kat
Kat
You wanted to make out with me.
Kat
Kat
And you did, and it was great.
Kat
Kat
It’s not that big of a deal.
As she’s talking, I get butterflies.
I lose track of everything she’s saying.
And I almost want to kiss her again.
What the heck am I doing?!
Madison
Madison
Until last night, I'd never kissed a girl before.
Madison
Madison
And besides, I have a boyfriend.
Madison
Madison
I’m just confused, okay?
Kat
Kat
That's totally okay.
Kat
Kat
If you want to be just friends, great.
Kat
Kat
But if you want more…
She leans in and gives me a hug.
Kat
Kat
Just let me know.
I have no idea what to say to that.
Kat
Kat
And don’t worry…
Kat
Kat
I won’t tell Trey.
She gives me a wink…
Then disappears down the hall.
All day, my mind is racing…
I have to make sense of this.
And I really have to tell Trey.
After school I go over to his house.
I jump into his arms and hug him tight.
His hair is still wet from the shower he just took.
I love his hair.
Why did I have to kiss Kat?
I’m such an idiot.
Madison
Madison
Can we talk?
Trey
Trey
Uh, sure.
I’m nervous…
I can’t help myself.
All of a sudden I just blurt it out…
Madison
Madison
I kissed my friend Kat!
Trey stares at me for a moment.
Then a smile starts to creep onto his face.
He starts to laugh.
Madison
Madison
Why are you laughing!
Madison
Madison
This is serious!
Madison
Madison
I cheated on you!
Trey
Trey
Mads, I’ve always known you liked girls.
Madison
Madison
What?
Madison
Madison
What do you mean?
Trey
Trey
It’s fine!
Trey
Trey
I’m not a girl.
Trey
Trey
I can’t fulfill that side of you.
Trey
Trey
And I want you to be happy.
Madison
Madison
But…I want you.
I take his hands in mine.
Madison
Madison
You’re my boyfriend.
Trey
Trey
Yes, and I’m so glad.
Trey
Trey
But that doesn’t mean…
Trey
Trey
That you’re not attracted to other people.
Trey
Trey
I want you to have that space.
Trey
Trey
Besides, Kat’s cute.
Trey
Trey
I get it.
Madison
Madison
You’re so sweet.
Madison
Madison
I’m going to work this out.
Madison
Madison
I’ll make sure she knows…
Madison
Madison
That me and her are just friends.
Trey
Trey
Whatever you want to do is good with me.
Madison
Madison
You’re amazing, Trey.
Madison
Madison
I want you, only.
I lean in and kiss him.
He gives me butterflies, every time.
Madison
Madison
I’ll see you later.
I race over to Kat’s house…
It’s time to tell Kat that we’re just friends.
I can do this.
I gather up all the courage I have…
And knock on the front door.
The door swings open.
A big smile comes across Kat’s face.
Kat
Kat
Hey! What’s up, Mads?
Madison
Madison
Hi! Um…
I look into her eyes.
My palms start to sweat.
Madison
Madison
I just need to say…
Madison
Madison
I’ve thought about it and…
Madison
Madison
We should just be friends.
She looks a little disappointed…
But she smiles anyway.
Madison
Madison
Because we’ve always been friends.
Madison
Madison
You’ve always been there for me.
Madison
Madison
And I don’t want to ruin that.
Madison
Madison
But I want you to know…
Oh, god, what am I saying?
Madison
Madison
I think you’re really special.
Madison
Madison
And I think you’re beautiful.
And before I know it, I grab her hands…
And kiss her…
Kat starts to giggle.
And she kisses me back.
She looks at me slyly.
Kat
Kat
What exactly were you saying?
Kat
Kat
About just being friends?
Madison
Madison
Forget it.
Madison
Madison
I like you, Kat.
Kat
Kat
I like you too, Mads.
Madison
Madison
I was thinking…
Madison
Madison
I’m going to dinner with Trey…
Madison
Madison
And some of his friends tonight.
Madison
Madison
You want to go with us?
Kat
Kat
Sure, I’d love to.
Kat
Kat
See ya later.
She kisses my cheek and closes the door.
As I walk onto the street…
I can’t help but feel relieved…
Like a giant weight has been lifted off me.
This love stuff is hard…
And confusing…
But it’s a lot easier…
When you’re honest and free…
To be yourself.
Madison
Madison