Dating A Friend
by A. Muse
I just broke up with Adam.
What happened?
Found out he was cheating on me.
I’m sorry. You okay man?
Yeah. I just don’t get it.
I don’t get it either.
What don’t you get?
Why you keep dating loser.
Adam was a good guy.
Good guys don’t cheat on people.
Then what do you suggest I do?
Date me.
Lol
Stop kidding.
Who said I was kidding?
Why not date me? We’ve been friends for three years now.
Plus I would never cheat on you.
But I didn’t think you liked me in that way.
Now I’m saying that I do.
So . . .
IDK. I mean I never thought about it.
You can say no. It’s not like I’m forcing you.
I’m not saying no. I’m just saying give me a moment.
A moment for what?
To think about it. About what it means.
About what it will do to our friendship.
It will add a Boy in front of the Friend.
Don’t be a smartass.
Take your time. Think about it. Then get back to me.
What happens if I say yes?
I believe you’re familiar with the rules of dating.
What happens if I say no?
I don’t bring it up anymore and we stay friends.
Unless you don’t want to be my friend anymore.
No way. You’re my best friend.
I don’t want to just be your friend anymore Amber.
I’ve keep quiet about my feelings for a long time now.
I let them simmer into a boil inside of me.
Watching one idiot after another break your heart.
Telling myself next time, next time. Well I can’t, I won’t hold back anymore.
You could have told me.
How could I ever say it to you?
How could I look you in the eyes and tell you everything that’s bottle inside of me.
You seem to be doing fine right now.
Don’t kid yourself. I feel like I’m breaking in two.
Don’t be a drama king.
You don’t realize how much I think of you.
How I love the way you’re so headstrong.
The kind of person that foolishly runs into things and then complains when it doesn’t go her way.
You’re always kind.
When you think no one is looking you helps people in small ways that goes unnoticed.
And God you’re brave. More brave than I could ever hope to be.
You don’t get discourage and when you wants something you stops at nothing for to get it.
I wish I had that kind of strength inside of myself. Then I could make you mine.
Kevin ...don’t say embarrassing things like that.
Of course I know you’re not perfect either.
You’re quick to get angry. The smallest thing can make you fly off the handle.
And no one wants to be in your war path when that happen.
God knows you’re selfish too.
You pout until you gets your way but you only shows this side to the people you trust the most.
I’ve always found you really cute.
The kind of person who once your eyes find you can’t look away from.
I really love you. So much that it hurts sometimes.
Sometimes when I see you I feel like I’m going to explode.
Like I’m doing everything in my power to not rush towards you.
To not make her mine that second.
Why didn’t you tell me sooner than?
I’m not a brave man. The thought of ending our friendship scares me.
I just can’t hold it back anymore.
I’ll be the first to confess to being a chicken. A coward.
The words come when it’s my fingers doing the talking but when we stand face to face my mind go blank.
For a while now I wanted to tell you, my best friend who I can tell anything too, but I’m scared.
Scared that things will change between us once I do.
Scared that I will be rejected and you won’t want to see me anymore.
So tell me now.
I wanted to tell you for a long time now I couldn’t get you out of my head.
That when I go to sleep you’re my last thought. When I wake up you’re my first thought.
Sometimes I find myself spacing out during the day because I’m thinking about you.
How could I tell you that when we bump into each other or play fight I get scared that you’ll notice how fast my heart is beating.
That there has been times that I sat and watch you sleep.
That I think the faces you make is the cutest.
How can I get through to you that I can’t picture my life without you in it.
That if you wasn’t here then I wouldn’t have a reason to go on.
I love you Amber! I love you. I’ve loved you for what seems like forever.
I love you.
Kevin I...
I don’t expect you to return my feelings. I just can’t do it anymore.
I can’t watch you date one man after another.
I can’t watch those idiots break your heart and not do anything to help.
Kevin I...
I should have just kept my mouth shut. I should have never said anything.
I should have went one like we always do. I should have been happy with what I had.
Kevin shut up for a moment.
Damn everytime I start to text you send a new one.
I couldn’t find the right guy because I was comparing them all to you.
Because none of them ever met up to your standards.
One idiot after another.
I kept dating them trying to find a guy that would treat me the way that you do.
I thought that we could never be together. That we were best friends.
That there was some lines you just can’t cross. I was scared too.
Because if I date you and it don’t work out I lose you.
I don’t want to lose you.
Because I love you too.
Can I come over?
Dur idiot.
I love you Amber.
:D I love you too.
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