That shouldn’t be happening.
Not when he just asked for my number.
My stomach flips, and not in a good way.
Tilla looks at me as she grinds herself harder on Drew’s lap.
I leave the room before I gag.
My illusion of him is officially shattered.
Suddenly I feel very out of place.
I’m not like these people.
These are Drew’s people…Tilla’s people…
I head outside and take a deep breath of fresh air.
I think of calling a cab, then remember I don’t have my phone.
But I notice a few guys by Trevor’s car…
I walk up and tap him on the shoulder.
Martha
I’d like to go home, please.
Trevor reads my mood instantly and turns to his friends.
Trevor
I’ll catch you guys later.
The other guys eye me curiously before walking away.
They’re probably wondering what Trevor is doing with someone like me.
Probably, like me, wondering what I’m even doing here.
Martha
If you don’t want to leave I can call a cab.
Martha
I just need my phone.
Trevor opens the passenger door for me.
Trevor
Nah, I’m ready to go.
The car is silent as we pull onto the main road.
This has probably been the most embarrassing night of my life.
Martha
Your advice didn’t work, you know.
I quickly explain what happened with Drew and Tilla.
I expect shock, but Trevor just shrugs.
Trevor
Doesn’t surprise me.
Trevor
It’s for the best.
Trevor
You and Drew would have never worked out.
My anger rises to the surface.
Martha
And why is that, Trevor?
Martha
Is he too hot for me?
Martha
Was it obvious I was just a nerd in a stolen crop top?
Trevor
No to all three of those things.
Trevor
But here are MY three.
Trevor
One? He’s a douche.
Trevor
Three? You guys have zero chemistry.
Trevor
That kiss between you was a hot mess.
Trevor
It seriously made me uncomfortable to watch.
Trevor
I had to stop myself from pulling him away from you.
I gasp in shock at his words.
He looks over at me quickly before facing the road again.
Trevor
You’re easy to read, Martha.
Trevor
You weren’t into it.
I was into it! I almost respond.
But I stop myself, because underneath my anger and humiliation…
And the truth is that I wasn’t into that kiss.
Ugh, the truth can be bitter.
I look out the window, not wanting to meet Trevor’s gaze.
Trevor
Look, I’m sorry if you’re disappointed.
Trevor
But I’m right, aren’t I?
Trevor
You weren’t into it, were you?
I sigh, rubbing my hands over my face.
I’m a bit disturbed he’s able to read me so easily.
But I guess I’ve never been good at hiding my emotions.
His face is unreadable, once again.
I turn in my seat to face him.
Martha
Hide what you’re thinking all the time.
Trevor
Yeah, I’ve noticed.
Martha
Trevor, I’m serious.
Martha
What’s your secret, Mr. Unreadable?
Trevor
There is no secret.
Trevor
It’s just who I am.
Trevor
And trust me, Martha.
Trevor
I’d much rather be like you.
The car is now silent, but it’s filled with something else.
He parks and we both walk toward the dorms.
I decide I should at least thank him.
Martha
I know tonight didn’t go as planned.
Martha
But I want to thank you—
Trevor
A favor for a favor.
He reaches into his pocket and hands me my phone.
Our fingers brush against each other.
Tingles spread up my arm.
I say stupid things when I’m flustered.
Martha
Well hey, at least I got something out of it.
He tilts his head to the side inquisitively.
Martha
Even if it was pretty terrible.
His eyes pop open in shock.
I hear music screeching to a stop in my head again.
Why did I just admit that?!
Martha
Umm…I’ll see you around.
I walk quickly into the building.
I just told a boy with a “one-night-stand” reputation that I’d never been kissed.
I reach my door and put the key in.
I think about throwing out my granny panties.
Suddenly Trevor is at the door.
He grabs my arm and spins me around.
Trevor
That wasn’t a first kiss.
He slides one hand over my lower back…
The other slides up into my hair.
His face is still unreadable…
But there’s a spark of something in his eyes.
Then, his lips are on mine.
I smile against his mouth.
I know what it is I felt in the car now.
What it is I felt between us…
